Tragediverssary.......

Its been a year since tragedy hit my life. Yeah for some people it may not seem to be anything, but for me it was my world and dream- all shattered at the cost of irresponsibilities. Its been a year but memories are still fresh in my mind.

It was just like yesterday when i was blanketing bed of roses as lightning struck and took me into the depth of realm I never knew, a realm where ever since I haven't been able to be my real self. A realm where all seem so dark and futile. A realm where I am living as the ever so famous "walking-dead". A realm where I couldn't find my self to be freed from. A realm I am hiding in. A realm I find comfort despite being some one I am not, still I am curling up this realm, as I got no place to go, no where to hide and no where to run...Here I am....Still dreading about a year ago.

The pain is real...and somehow I want the pain to be forever, so that I will never forget the lesson.So that I'll never be too complacent, so that I'll never be too soft. That's why I never moved on. I'll remember this experience.....The day when I give up justifying myself.....The day when I stopped loving, the day when I start becoming ever so vulnerable yet strong......Its the day I have been shaped to the person I am....The day when people will have to answer to me, else they can fuck off by all means....The day I stopped carrying, and my middle finger spoke most of my actions...

There's a high price to pay being nice...And belive me the its not worth it...And so I changed, prepared to wage a war....without holding back.

This date seem to have something against me. A year ago my future became dark on this date, and today as I type this entry out, my already dark future is hanging on the edge of a bull's horn. I am waiting, impatiently though for whatever this date holds for me today. For my friends its just another event, but for me this date itself comes with loads of bad news...Wondering how long can i take anymore, I am still waiting hopelessly......

A year ago I made a mistake, due to trusting some one and today the mistake is hunting me down and the trust i bestowed upon no longer exist. I am just another loser, and she doesn't give a shit about me anymore.....Thanks alot....for the memories.....22nd July...

Where Fantasy and Reality Cross Paths.......22nd July......