Parents...Money....My Obstacles....
Working can be very good for me at times... Since it is damn boring, i tend to take whole load of time to day dream as i please...And of course this day dreams, are those that inspire me to write at times.. And this is one of the post inspired by my dreamy mood..
Now that I am working and earning enough money for myself, I realise i am on the way into stabilizing my future.. But the more i think about it, the more I tend to shiver as it looks like a long way and I hate getting old and all my desires and wishes tend to be washed away as i age.
I thought about, what were the dreams I had once....My dreams and desires are not so unrealistic, but I had 2 obstacles that didn't make it happen majorly. 1) My parents, 2) Money
As a few of that which I could recall....
I was interested in photography, as a matter of fact am still interested in it, but when I was young say about 15 years old, I expressed my interest to my dad...But lousy guy just asked me to finish up my studies first. Being the type that I will only ask once, of course i didnt bother to pursue my desire any further, until recently that it knocked me again mainly cuz i am earning enough to by my own SLR and start experimenting...Yeah I know its never too late, but heck its too early to hydrate all my money especially when I haven't bought meself a house...So its kinda frustrating to know that I still cant have what i desire because I have other purposes to accomplish...
I also remember that I was interested in Music...I wanted to learn to play guitar, and drums, and piano and all sort of musical instruments...Again, I approached my dad telling how much was i interested and wanted to start by learning guitar..And his answer was "concerntrate on ur SPM first"...There you go...never again am I gonna' ask you about this alrite..And so I went on with my life until recently when a pastor in the church I attend to asked me..."Do you play music?" and to which I replied "Well i really want to, but no i don't...Don't have much luck". "Well you have that radiant of a musician in you, you should try out. I am sure there are people in church willing to teach you" he said.."Yeah sure", I replied and forgot about it until a church member called me and asked me regarding my interest in Music and offered to help me out....Walau wei...Call it coincident, call it, that I am being a dupe for people who sweet talk me...But hey where positive energy flows, u should feel great right. And again my desire for music started heating up and came to a halt when I realised money again wasn't at my side for me to own my own guitar. Well yeah people can say that I can get a cheap one, but hey I'm dedicated when it comes to the things I desire and I want the best of it, so I aint gonna learn my music with some cheap guitars which doesn't echo some good sound...DOnt tell me they are all the same. It depends on how u tune it. Well hey I admit that I do not know much about the tuning, but I tried few guitars which are tuned well...but belive me, the expensive ones really have a good sound...
Right now I am also interseted in fast cars and modifications...But then again I can hear my parents nagging about me getting a brand new wira instaed of a RX-7, which is about 10 years old...But hey what class does a Wira has compared to RX-7...Even if i tend to oversee all those, I still can't attain it as money is still a problem for me...Well buying RX-7 is not that expensive, but since it will be a second hand car, I sure can expect loads of problems, and this problems can cost me multiple bombs....Sigh...
I also recall about my ambition being a lawyer...But both my parents told me that there are quantity of lawyers in this country and so I may not have a value for it...If they only knew how much confident I had in being a quality lawyer.....Well of course again I thought about doing law now part time...But is there anyone out there willing to sponsor me, cus u know as I mentioned earlier, I need to save up money for my house and car...Pleasee...I am willing to be bonded...
Last but not least, the obstacles I faced in loving a girl..Well this time of course it was not my parents, it was hers....Was ditched for my skin colour...I wonder if I was a billionaire...would my skin colour have mattered then...
Anyway if any of you going to suggest me to save up my money, I can achieve all my dreams later on when I'm rich....well what the hell am I gonna do with a RX-7....go to office as if it is not a big deal...what am I gonna do with my SLR.....give it to my kids as a play toy...And why the hell do I need a law degree...So that at 50 I can defend some unfortunate people and still lose the case..Wait...one more...oh yeah...the Guitar must be my companionship when my kids send me to old folks home right...And well the girl is gone anyway so she will be gone even further then...
Where Fantasy and Reality Cross Paths.....i want this, i want that, but i got nothing in the end....
Now that I am working and earning enough money for myself, I realise i am on the way into stabilizing my future.. But the more i think about it, the more I tend to shiver as it looks like a long way and I hate getting old and all my desires and wishes tend to be washed away as i age.
I thought about, what were the dreams I had once....My dreams and desires are not so unrealistic, but I had 2 obstacles that didn't make it happen majorly. 1) My parents, 2) Money
As a few of that which I could recall....
I was interested in photography, as a matter of fact am still interested in it, but when I was young say about 15 years old, I expressed my interest to my dad...But lousy guy just asked me to finish up my studies first. Being the type that I will only ask once, of course i didnt bother to pursue my desire any further, until recently that it knocked me again mainly cuz i am earning enough to by my own SLR and start experimenting...Yeah I know its never too late, but heck its too early to hydrate all my money especially when I haven't bought meself a house...So its kinda frustrating to know that I still cant have what i desire because I have other purposes to accomplish...
I also remember that I was interested in Music...I wanted to learn to play guitar, and drums, and piano and all sort of musical instruments...Again, I approached my dad telling how much was i interested and wanted to start by learning guitar..And his answer was "concerntrate on ur SPM first"...There you go...never again am I gonna' ask you about this alrite..And so I went on with my life until recently when a pastor in the church I attend to asked me..."Do you play music?" and to which I replied "Well i really want to, but no i don't...Don't have much luck". "Well you have that radiant of a musician in you, you should try out. I am sure there are people in church willing to teach you" he said.."Yeah sure", I replied and forgot about it until a church member called me and asked me regarding my interest in Music and offered to help me out....Walau wei...Call it coincident, call it, that I am being a dupe for people who sweet talk me...But hey where positive energy flows, u should feel great right. And again my desire for music started heating up and came to a halt when I realised money again wasn't at my side for me to own my own guitar. Well yeah people can say that I can get a cheap one, but hey I'm dedicated when it comes to the things I desire and I want the best of it, so I aint gonna learn my music with some cheap guitars which doesn't echo some good sound...DOnt tell me they are all the same. It depends on how u tune it. Well hey I admit that I do not know much about the tuning, but I tried few guitars which are tuned well...but belive me, the expensive ones really have a good sound...
Right now I am also interseted in fast cars and modifications...But then again I can hear my parents nagging about me getting a brand new wira instaed of a RX-7, which is about 10 years old...But hey what class does a Wira has compared to RX-7...Even if i tend to oversee all those, I still can't attain it as money is still a problem for me...Well buying RX-7 is not that expensive, but since it will be a second hand car, I sure can expect loads of problems, and this problems can cost me multiple bombs....Sigh...
I also recall about my ambition being a lawyer...But both my parents told me that there are quantity of lawyers in this country and so I may not have a value for it...If they only knew how much confident I had in being a quality lawyer.....Well of course again I thought about doing law now part time...But is there anyone out there willing to sponsor me, cus u know as I mentioned earlier, I need to save up money for my house and car...Pleasee...I am willing to be bonded...
Last but not least, the obstacles I faced in loving a girl..Well this time of course it was not my parents, it was hers....Was ditched for my skin colour...I wonder if I was a billionaire...would my skin colour have mattered then...
Anyway if any of you going to suggest me to save up my money, I can achieve all my dreams later on when I'm rich....well what the hell am I gonna do with a RX-7....go to office as if it is not a big deal...what am I gonna do with my SLR.....give it to my kids as a play toy...And why the hell do I need a law degree...So that at 50 I can defend some unfortunate people and still lose the case..Wait...one more...oh yeah...the Guitar must be my companionship when my kids send me to old folks home right...And well the girl is gone anyway so she will be gone even further then...
Where Fantasy and Reality Cross Paths.....i want this, i want that, but i got nothing in the end....
posted by devilwitattitude at 3:37 PM
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