When December comes, and December came....

Well Somehow December seem to be great month of a year. For me at least. Why??? Well cus it is the year end. Despite the fact that I am getting older as every year goes by, it is often a benchmark to relief ourselves and see where we have gone from where.... This is the time when people will often think about their resolution. Things they want to accomplish on coming year. Some fail, some jump with glorious smile, some like me simply fall into the mud. But thats not the point...The point is that December is a month where people actually will do something because of the month alone...Its like fearing the month some sort....And as I mentioned, it is for several reasons...all in the perspective of an individual.

But of all those meanings, the world will always remember December for one thing and that one thing for sure.CHRISTMAS....yup its is coming and it will come and go like every other year yet it doesn't fail to mark its excitement in every one's heart..Well I am sure it marked mine..SInce like 4 years ago if I am not mistaken...First two a lonely christmas, third year with my ex, and it was like all heaven blessing us...Honestly...I enjoyed every moment of it. I am not from a born christian background. I adopted what I am standing by today for my own reasons known to me and God and pretty obvious to much. So coming from a totally different family root, my decision is being opposed till today but though my parents are aware about it unless things hit them obviously, we will not have a row, else I guess all hell will break loose. So being in such a situation I never did celebrated christmas..But somehow I enjoyed the thought of celebrating it and it left me lonely..

Until my third year of course, I celebrated it with my ex...Like I said it was rain of blessings from heaven..Who needs party and crowd visting your home when I can gather more joy just by being next to the girl I love...Yeah my memories are still sort of fresh on events that took place that particular night, though I must admit it is decaying away....simply because ageing factor....Gosh do I sound old....

Came fourth year and I am back to my initial state...lonely christmas again.....and this year, I am not expecting much deviations either......Yeah to make things worse I'll be working on that day...I could take a break, but then I dont see why...I'll end up in my corner being all alone anyway...So I guess I might as well work my sorrows off...

this is my december

this is my time of the year

this is my december

this is all so clear

this is my december

this is my snow covered home

this is my december

this is me alone

and i

just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed

and i

take back all the things i said to make you feel like that

and i

just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed

and i take back all the things i said to you

and i

give it all away just to have somewhere to go to

give it all away to have someone to come home to

this is my december

these are my snow covered dreams

this is me pretending

this is all i need

and i

just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed

and i

take back all the things i said to make you feel like that

and i just wish that i didnt feel like there was something i missed

and i take back all the things i said to you

and i

give it all away just to have somewhere to go to

give it all away to have someone to come home to

this is my december this is my time of the year

this is my december this is all so clear

and i give it all away just to have somewhere to go to

give it all away to have someone to come home to

Can you hear it....the echoes of my realmz.....