Friends...Huh? What the fuck is that????

I am not trying to offend anyone here...but merely just expressing myself with loads of honesty..Some of my friends who may come across my site...please dont be offended... To some people friends can be world...For me too..I mean i was never close with my family so i was always attached with my friends...But recent tragedies in my life has taught me a lesson./...That friends are only an instance in my life that i am prepared to loose... I mean i can remember who was my first friend ever, but thru evolution of time....i met many people and some became friends and the old ones are lost.....Right now i have couple of guys that i can consider close with, though i do not know every bit of waves of their lives, but they are the ones that i spend time with.....Yeah we do have our misunderstandings, but maturity though might not draw us any closer but it damn well didnt drew us apart...Even one of my close friend Kenny belives that friend is only a word and it reflects nothing more than that....
Time and time again i have been betrayed by people i call friends....but non of them appreciated me being their friend....I mean why would u hurt me if i am ur friend....I mean i didnt hurt u didnt i....The most common conflict in friends issue among guys especially is another instance called gf...Gf has been snatched or fellow friends might not like the gal and true enuff as if hypnotized we guys will end up fighting with our friends over the gal who eventually we will end up dumping or being dumped by anyway....
I had a friend that i tursted..I never did hurt the guy in any means in fact....But he hurt me....did something knowing well that his actions will hurt me...And he did it anyway....He was selfish...The best part about this is that after hurting me that bastard demanded if i want his friendship or not ? What the fuck????U didnt know the the emaning of a friend.....U didnt respect my friendship with u.....fuck what right u -some1 who doesn't know the meaning of friendship, have to demand high upon urself...Fuck do u think ur words are warranted...I dont need this kind of friends...I rather have Kenny who doesn't really believe in idea of friends but still uses his logic and common sense not to hurt me, than a fucking bastard like this who potrays as if my friendship matters whereas in truth be told he doesn't give a fuck...He just tried to reconcile so that he can show off to others that he did make his move to make things better but i wasn't matured enough, and the blame goes all over to me for making things worse...Dude u didnt do anything to make things better.....u r just trying to cover up ur mess and earn a good point infront of others....U dont really care for me....U never did....
Despite the fact i do have good friends such as Victor, Ah 'B, Abeer, William, Kenny and Din to name a few, but no 1 can see past a second after this moment, whatelse do i have to say about who may be what to me in the end...Honestly guys...no offence.....I appreciate all u guys...And i am trying my level best to be the best bud to u guys...but as u all know, all in a sudden a friend became foe to me....so we may not know where we will be positioned to defend what.....But i do hope that we carry on our bond......nevertheless i am prepared to loose the bond....For at the end of the day we all are selfish bastards and bitches.....fuck carrying....screw helpful and ditch kindnesss.....SELFISH rules and i am sure all of us will be a slave to that.....Guess there is no point i care much and feel for u guys....I am different and i cant fit in, therefore i am a bastard to u guys.....when tragedy hits.....

Where fantasy and reality cross paths....friendship is an instance of my journey i am prepared to be
lost of.......