Who am I????

The Q Made me ponder many a times, who the hell could i really be and who the hell have i became and who is the real me...

I mean me being me-does it mean that this is who i am, or me being is actually who i was made up to be. But what's riddling me more is who the hell will I be if i am not whoever the hell i am now???

I mean, have we ever wondered about ourselves all this while.... Are we being ourselves for it is who we are or are we molded into being someone who we think we are today..

I am so confused....

Often I think....

Do i help someone for i am helpful, or do i do it because i want people to think i am helpful???

Do i encourage someone to lift them up or to actually stand up to their high expectations about me???

Do i mind my manners for i am well mannered, or in fear of embarrassing my parents???

Do i care for others because i am kind, or to accomodate to their feelings???

Do i lie cuz' I'm a liar or becaue the truth hurts even more???

Do i love because i want to be loved or because i want to love???

Do i murder because i am a murderer or because i have no other choice???

Do i drive fast because i wanna kill myself or because it is my ability???

Am I being myself, or being someone else....for others instead of me....

I do loads of things for acceptance. I guess that's the only reason why i do things that i never thought of, things that i never really pondered about..Things like this shaped me up to who i am today, but the bottom line is that i let them shape me for fear of being isolated. But not always am i successful, still end up being deterred...So who am I??? A lonely anti social freak, or a freindly next door neighbour....

Which one is the real me???

Where Fantasy and Reality Cross Paths...i am an entity who lost its identity...