Being Idealist....

I remember having a chat wif a fren..Was talking about life, relationships and stuffs..She was more of a practical person, thus she condemned me for being an idealist...That was the first time some one ever called me idealist...Of course initially i brushed off the thought of it.

Later on I began to ponder again...
Actually its true that I'm being idealistic sometimes...In fact most of the times I am. And I wonder why am I still..I mean I wnet thru shit with people who claimed to share my ideologies with me...When are ok, they praise my ideologies..and if it went awry, they call me idealist..Honestly, I realised being idealistic is not the way...I tried so many times, and yet I fall so miserably...But look at all those easy goers...They seem to be happier than myself...They think they are being practical.But I am being practical as well..There's always different method to approach things...But I belive my methods are more practical...For instance..Sex before marriage is more practical to me...but suprisingly the practical method adopted by most ppl these days is sex before everything else..Just because most people think alike, it doesnt mean I can be wrong can I???..

Of course on further consideration, there is no reason for me to hold on to my ideals..I mean people around the world dont give a shit about me or what I think and often they are selfish to look after they're bowl of rice..So why the fuck must I look after their feelings..So much for compassion and carrying...

Still I can take things for granted...I dunno why, everytime I do things against my will, I feel guilty....Can some one please help me out on how to change my own will so that I wont feel guilty...Maybe thats my weakness...I see many people tend to take advantage of me....But still I dont plant my revenge...I still hold on to my ideals...I think it is about time I change....

Where Fantasy and Reality Cross Paths....change....