Emily

This post is dedicated to one of my colleague. As it is now, she has left me at the Starbucks to go greet her brother so that they can have dinner. Lousy girl leaving me here to look after her things...Hahahaha...Just kidding..She asked me out for dinner, but I politely declined so that I can take my time to make my first ever entry from Starbucks. I had several other topics in mind but decided to just stick with this dedication.

Me and Emily aint exactly that close to be accurate, but we are still friends, and to be at a place where a simple "hi" from me can invoke a wrong impression I am just as glad to be accepted by this cute little girl. At a company where people like me were prosecuted, for being just US...She in the midst accepted us for who we are.

She is a very strong girl. Less than a month ago her mom passed away, but here she is today after submitting her resignation all so pshyched up about leaving this country and continue her journey at Macao. That pretty much summarized the reason for this dedication post. I recall when I called as I found out about her mother's departure. Likewise many, I felt sorry for her...and for a very long time now I havent been much of a good comfort for many in peril..So I was quite tensed on what should I say and stuffs. But this girl completely relieved the burden of me as when she answered my call...She wasnt crying ...She was sad as naturally one could be, but she didnt shed a tear. She got over her mom's death very fast. Not that she didn't love her...But she just conceded to the fact that the time has come to past for her mom and for many it will come sooner or later. I mean eventually there are plenty of people who could move on with their life...but to move on so fast...this girl really earned my salute...

Emily aint like many girls.. Most girls I have seen are very predictable...But she is different..Every time we talk she just amaze me with very different perspective....Ususally I can guess what the heck a girl gonna say....But Emily, I am having hard time decyphering her. Maybe she aint too complicated at all...

Now the most common Q as of now that would be lingering in my loyal readers' mind - "he seems interested in her, why aint he going after her?" Hey I am not gonna deny my interest on her. In fact I was interested in her even before we became friends...Cus she looks good, got a good smile and I like that in a girl. I am not sure if she would have rejected me or not had I asked her out...But I am sure I didnt find out the answer to that, mainly because of my own emotional state that I wasn't ready to be attached with anyone. Plus I didnt wanna just barge into a relationship that I am not very well versed of. I know some may say that is the point of the whole relationship. Journey together towards the awaiting world. Well I just thought I needed my own time before I accumulate the guts to venture into another relationship.

Well, my intentions were short lived. A friend of mine got to the base first and she accepted him. I didnt feel hurt. Maybe cus I wasn't too committed in wanting her even then. But whats worse was that their relationship was short lived as well... My friend, the bastard dumped after a couple of months. Probably slightly more than a month only if I could recall it. Between my friend and Emily, there could be a thousand reasons why he dumped her, but my coin is because she didn't wanna bed with him. Kinda sad aint it, to break an innocent girl's heart just because she didn't give in to the guy's desire. Looks like relationship these days are nothing but a background of bedroom as its top priority. I felt sad for her, but she again got over it quite fast. She told me she teared as it happened...For all I care it wasn't a relationship worth wasting her tears on. Probably she could have cried her heart off at vase of new seeds. At least that would have gotten more nutrition thus flowering at the end of the day... After the whole thing...My mind suggested again to try for her, but then I was just too comfortable with being a friend only. Plus being from the same group - me and my friend that is, I dont think so its gonna look good for her, had I approached and she accepted, not to mention that she herself might be dealing with a trauma. Like I said I was comfortable at the way things just are and she never knew anything about any of this. and this probably is the best parting gift I could give her. Honest expression from my heart; something many fail to deliver while others failed to receive.

Well now she is leaving, I wish her all the best from my heart. Hope we could keep in touch, though I am pretty pretty sure its gonna be hard on her end especially...And also I hope she doesn't get cheated again, especially when she is at a foreign land.

That's about it, I have completed my first ever starbucks free wifi sourced entry. Peace out and love ya Emily....

Can you hear it...the echoes of realmz....