Where do I stand???

When I want to cry, but too ashamed to…..

When I want to scream but too polite to….

When I want to hate Chinese, but my close friends are Chinese….

When I want to be lonely, but too afraid to ….

When I want friends, but too reluctant to ….

When I want to murder but, too kind to…..

When I want to break his skull, but too kind to…..

When I want to trust god, but too fragile to…..

When I want to have faith, but too broken to …….

When I want to rise, but too weak to…..

When I want to fight, but too soft….

When I want to persist, but too terrified to…..

When I want to stop smoking, but too stressed to….

When I want to move on, but too numb to….

When I want to love her, but too hopeless to……

DO SO…..

Where do I stand, can anyone tell me???

Where fantasy and reality cross paths….uncertainty is the only certain thing I perceive.